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CRIME FIGHTER*wRITER*lOVER*fILM AFFICIONADO*ADVENTURER

My ancestors came from India to an island called Trinidad on a boat. My parents left Trinidad to the U.S. on a plane. I grew up in this country trying to be a good man and getting doors slammed in my face by people I gave my heart to. Well today that changes. God will provide. I will be healed and I will accomplish my dreams on my own through him. No more deceit.

What a whirlwind of days.  I feel like I’ve lived a lifetime in a few short months.  I’ve learned so many lessons and have run the gamut of emotions.  From building bonds with friends and family to watching them crumble like houses made of sand.  Highs and lows come and go.  Currently, I’m getting eyewitness accounts of my eldest brother’s marriage fall apart, reaching out to a woman I care for dearly and getting nowhere, and the birth of my nephew.  It’s been hectic and challenging.  Especially considering I am trying to maintain a positive and wholesome view on life and its challenges right now.

But despite all these obstacles, a great and wondrous blessing has emerged.  I have been working on my relationship with God and trying to rebuild what was once a vital part of my being.  I have fallen so far from the voice of God that I no longer heard him in the midst of the storm.  He was always my calming factor and gave me the discernment to make decisions in life.  Just the other day, I just completely gave in.  My life has fell to the lowest depths and my health is not what it should be.  When others prayed for me, I resisted and even tried to obtain the ability to heal myself and do it on my own when conventional medicine failed.  But God is good and has led me right back to him.  As I said, I gave in and put all my faith in him.  It’s not up to me and it is in his hands.  He will do miraculous things in my life if I let him take control.  Today, Easter Sunday, I was able to attend church with my folks after years of not being able to do so.  The sermon was titled “It’s Not Over, ‘Til It’s Over”. Practically tailor-made for me.  As the pastor spoke, I knew God was working and I could hear his voice again.  The pastor, not knowing me, literally used my name in reference to God calling out, saying “Richard come forth!” as Jesus told Lazarus to come forth.  When he did the altar call, he broke tradition and asked for the sick in body first instead of asking for those who needed to accept Jesus in their lives.  Again, I felt the Lord talking to me.  It took me about 30 seconds to just go with it and submit to His will.  I approached the altar and was surrounded by church patrons and the pastor.  They prayed over me and I noticed something welling up within me.  All this emotion that was built up and all this pain in my body started to climb out of me from my stomach up and out my mouth as I prayed.  I thought it kind of funny to get some instant satisfaction, but surely as I sit here and type this, I felt a lot better, very quickly.  Ever since my covenant with the Lord to have him work in my life and heal me, I have noticed the pain and uneasiness slowly dissipating.  I know he watches over me and I know God will heal me.  I can’t wait to testify on his behalf and say to the world that “When everything else failed, God didn’t”.  I hope my story will open hearts and show people there is still hope and light in the world.  God is alive and well and working miracles today.  Believe.

Welcome the newest heir to the Singh Dynasty, my nephew Prince Dominick!!

Welcome the newest heir to the Singh Dynasty, my nephew Prince Dominick!!

He Is Good

Woke up. Feeling great. Less pain. Went to Tampa. Bought mad veggies. Babysat niece. Eatin’ good. Upgraded to groomsman. Chilled with nephew. God delivers. He is good. Amen.

I’ve always chased love and to think this night 2000 years ago, a man loved me so much he gave his life for me. Now that’s true love.

I’ve always chased love and to think this night 2000 years ago, a man loved me so much he gave his life for me. Now that’s true love.

It’s important to know how much I’ve loved this  woman. She was the best thing I’ve ever done. She was my best friend, my soulmate and my hero. So if you see her, ler her know there’s a sky out there with no sun in it. Because it’s darkness here without her. http://ift.tt/1gSunCY

It’s important to know how much I’ve loved this woman. She was the best thing I’ve ever done. She was my best friend, my soulmate and my hero. So if you see her, ler her know there’s a sky out there with no sun in it. Because it’s darkness here without her. http://ift.tt/1gSunCY

Dear Bonnie:

You said you were sorry for all the things you couldn’t be for me right now.  You were wrong.  You were EVERYTHING.  No matter the distance or circumstance.  I waited for you since before I had life or form.  I prayed to find you all my life.  I’m sorry for all the things I couldn’t be.  Stronger, more intelligent or responsible, and wherever else I may have been lacking.  I’m sorry I pushed you away with my weakness.  I loved you and you were the apple of my eye.  You could really do no wrong and even now, I am not mad at you for doing what you feel was best.  I trust your judgement and pray that you stay well and that you won’t forget what we shared.  I’ll be gone now out of your life.  I’m sorry I got angry about losing you, but you were my greatest source of happiness and I couldn’t stand to no longer have you in my life.  This is my goodbye.  Please, be happy and stay who you are.  I’ve always believed in you and always will.  Take care my love.

- Clyde

You gave me  a song and taught me how to dance.  I  will always be grateful for that,

UNCONDITIONALLY

I loved her unconditionally.

Her fiery natural red hair and brown eyes.

Her fingertips dyed and stain from nights working at the bar.

The way the hair instantaneously returned to her freshly shaved legs when she was cold.

How she sang to herself wherever she went and whatever she did.

When she colored with crayons in her downtime.

How she sat legs crossed in bed with her iPad in her lap and balancing a cup of coffee in one hand and her phone in the other.

All the words she muttered while asleep.

When she slipped into her glasses before bed.

How much she enjoyed breakfast and ate cereal ALL the time.

Phrases like “what all” and “pop”.

How she likes Jack Honey and “good tasting” beers.

How family is so important to her.

When she steals all the blanket.

The way she curls her hair for special occasions.

The way she looked in a dress or jeans…or anything for that matter.

The soft curves of her body.

Her acting, singing, and dancing abilities.

The way her kisses taste.

How she contorted her body to snuggle up to me.

How she saved my life and changed my world.

Her smile

Her soul.